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28 February 2011

Distracted by Worry

4:32 PM Posted by steve flores , , No comments
I remember trying out for a vocal group (ministry team) when I was in college.  I’ve never had to do a vocal try-out and to make matters worse, I’ve never really been confident in my voice either. At around 14 years old I sang on a team in a small church and, looking back, I question the sincerity of compliments from the people of this small church.  I have a couple cassette tapes of my voice back then and, let’s just say, I hope many of those wonderful encouragers asked for forgiveness.

I had grown pretty comfortable and confident singing in my small church, but when I arrived at college, confidence was severely lacking.  I met people who had pretty amazing voices!  So when an opening came available for a singing group one summer, I considered trying out.  I signed-up, at least.  I considered backing out many times before the try-out too.  I worried about it for weeks until the date arrived.  I don’t know if it’s possible to get a mouth sore on your throat (I guess it would be a throat sore) because of worry, and even if it isn’t, I developed one the day before the try-out. 

Walking up the stairs of the Administration building, to the music area, on the day of my try-out, my heart was pounding.  It felt like I left my confidence in the dorm room, under my bed, nestled next to a half-eaten bowl of Ramen noodles.  My hands were clammy, my throat hurt, and my legs felt wobbly.  I was worried the whole way up the stairs—dwelling on the worst possible outcome and practicing pessimistic self-talk.  I sat in a chair outside the practice room. They called my name.  I walked in.  Stammering, quivering, and in a voice reminiscent of puberty, I squeakily said (oblivious to the fact that they just called name), “Hi, I’m Steve.”  I’ll spare you the details.  I bombed.  I wasn’t THE bomb.  I bombed.  It was horrible and I don’t blame them for not calling me back.

I think many of us do this often.  We practice worry so much that we become professionals.  For believers, worry is not biblical.  I still find myself worrying about little things that end up becoming big things the more I worry.  In a time where the economy is horrible, the gas prices are soaring, there is uncertainty in the housing market, and income may be tight, I pray you find Jesus’ words comforting.  Maybe it's decisions to make or that have been made and now you're worrying about outcome.  Maybe you worry about your kids, your spouse, or your friends.  Don’t get so distracted by worry that you miss an opportunity to see joy today.  Trust God today.  And then tomorrow, trust God again.  And the next day, trust God again.

Matthew 6:33-34 (combined two versions)
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you (ESV). Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes (The Message).